26
Feb

Upcoming elbow surgeon appointment

I called my local hospital today to check the date of an appointment.

 

I have nerve damage in my elbow. My last endocrinologist appointment had her earnestly holding onto my forearm as she looked into my eyes to tell me that the nerve thing was not the fault of diabetes. She said it was not my fault.

 

She said it over and over.

 

...and over.

 

 

I Tried. I tried to approach this appointment by asking information that I would need to know, just IN CASE I ended up needing surgery for the nerve damage in my elbow.

 

She sees riiiiiiiight through me. My endo let me try to ask a few questions about stuff like "What should I be aware of, diabetes-wise, if I have elbow surgery?"  before she held my hand tightly and told me that this was not my fault. At that point I was having difficulty stifling an endless supply of tears, so my further diabetes-related questions were put on hold.

 

I appreciate this more than she could ever know. It means so much to me to know that she feels like I didn't cause this through lax diabetes management not-so-many-years ago when I was an irresponsible teenager. As well, the fact that she felt compelled to reassure me despite me never directly asking whether I caused this tells me that she knows me better than I had imagined.

 

Still, though, I feel like the schedule (17 15-minute appointments scheduled in the first 90 minutes of his day?!) of my potential elbow-surgeon does not inspire confidence. I'm trying very hard to reserve judgement until I first meet the surgeon, but I have to be honest: his hospital staff's view of him as a doctor and surgeon does not come off as particularly impressive...   :S

23
Feb

A moment of hesitation

Sometimes these moments of diabetes fatigue hit me out of nowhere.

Last night my pump site was itchy and sore. I'm not due to change it until tonight, so I figured I'd ride it out and just put up with the sore site for a day.

This morning I woke up late, rushed in to work without testing in the morning, and only checked when I got in to the office. I'd been going on my cgm values, which were a little high but nothing too critical.

My BG once I got to work? 18.7.

The most likely culprit is a site that's not absorbing properly any more. I know that to fix it the next thing I should do would be an injection (not a correction delivered through my pump!) and a set change.

I open the "diabetes drawer" at work, pull out my spare reservoir and Mio set... and I pause.

I just don't want to.

I'm actually finding myself contemplating getting the vial of long-acting Levemir that I keep in the fridge at work and switching back to shots for a day or two.

I know that a sore site makes me much more likely to want to take a break from pumping. A sore site is a reminder that I've got a plastic cannula below the skin, making a tiny part of my body itchy and uncomfortable.

For now I've delivered my correction and am waiting on the whole set-change-or-not issue. There is no need to decide right now.

It is uncomfortable, painful, and unfortunate, but it is not currently life-threatening. I can afford to take a minute to try to remind myself why I started pumping in the first place.

22
Feb

End-of-day lows?

Last week I ended one day with a pretty bad low.

 

2.8.

 

It was bad enough for me to chug back 2 juice boxes (20-some carbs apeice) to try to feel better) before I left work).

 

The thing is?

 

I walk into a door on my way out of the building.

 

I had 2x 21 carbs PLUS a 2-floor walk before I hit that door...but sometimes It just isn't enough to figure out whether the door opens in or out. *sigh*.

 

i walked into a door on my way out of the building;

&' yes...

22
Feb

Nancy says hi!

Hia. I am the bff. I am the sounding board for ideas. I am also the person who runs to mel with every single problem I ever have and expect full support. She is my person. And I am lost without her.

21
Feb

Overnight lows

I've been having some issues with overnight lows lately.

 

I've been setting a 70% basal overnight for the last few weeks. Most of me knows that a 70% basal will make me wake up ok; fortunately for me I have a pretty solid network of friends who help me to fee not-so-terrible when I've had some delicious delicious wine.

 

My overnight basal rates have been too high for a while, and the weird thing is that it seems to take having friends over for dinner and drinks to figure out that I need to do something more permanent than a 70% overnight basal.

Bah! I don't want to have to re-jig my overnight insulin rates! Sometimes changes, whether stress levels or natural life stuff, BLOW.

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