14
Aug

Post-baby!

Happy to announce that my beautiful and very skilled (in yelling) son was born May 3rd. Less-than-happy to announce that diabetes has been a mess since then.

 

Part of me wants to aim for an a1c of 14 so that I can use the high BGs to burn fat (instead of carbs) and lose this baby weight.

 

Most of me hates the BG rollercoaster that comes along with breastfeeding.

 

I'm a part of a weekly therapy group that takes place at a local hospital, but most of the new moms are working on issues with bonding with newborns and working on relationships with their partners. When I described my issues (constant obsession with low bgs like I needed in pregnancy, low bgs after breastfeeding, feeling kind of like I'm dealing with a newborn baby and a newborn (and very , very angry) t1 dx) , the lead therapist suggested that I use the group therapy as a place to vent. This left me feeling like the group wasn't equipped to deal with medial issues :S.

 

Whether this is true- remains to be seen! I'll report back on whether Ontario healthcare can focus on healthcare issues instead of partner communication issues (my partner kicks ass. No problems there.).

 

My wonderful, adorable (yet constantly angry) baby is great, probably. Now if only by diabetes could let me feed him without napping bc my bgs are in the 2s. Like I said, It's a work in progress.

9
Feb

New addition to the family- in progress

I've been quiet here for a little while.

A lot of that has to do with Life getting Busy. Very Busy.

I am 6 months pregnant with our first little bundle of joy. It has been an exhausting, exciting, and terrifying couple of months. Baby and I are healthy and doing well, and are being monitored very closely by the endocrinologists and maternal-fetal medicine specialists at my hospital. I'm at the hospital for around 3-6 hours every 2 weeks, and I expect appointments to be more frequent when I hit my 3rd trimester.

Managing diabetes in pregnancy has been exhausting. Regular diabetes already felt like a full-time job; pregnancy diabetes is even more time-intensive (which I thought was impossible, but... I've learned). The mental load of constant monitoring, paired with the constant low-level guilt that comes with every higher-than-desired BG, is leaving me pretty wiped out. I'd love to say I'm this tired at the end of every day, but truthfully it's 9am as I type this and I'm just about ready to cry, then sleep for about 36 hours. Not sure if it's the insulin resistance or my body responding to getting less exercise, but the post-meal spikes are spikier, the lows are rougher and more brutal, and the t1d-management full-time job is feeling more intensive than ever.

We've got a few more months to go. Here's hoping for a healthy mom and baby!

Baby ultrasound pic

Our little man!

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