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Last night was another wonderful #dsma tweet-chat. Just like last week, when the clock hit 10pm I felt good... I felt like there are people out there who feel like I do. This is only the second week that I've participated, but I feel like if I could make life go exactly as I wish, I would never do anything else on a Wednesday night between 9 and 10pm... It's really refreshing to connect with other people who know what it's like.
I feel like I sort of needed that connection, especially after Tuesday night. I was hanging out with Boyfriend, not doing much (lazing around...too tired to do much) and just generally feeling sort of blehh. I started feeling super sluggish, and since I'd been stable all day (I "spiked" to 7.2 after eating - that was my highest bg all day! AWESOME day! 😀 😀 😀) I chalked my tiredness up to it being a long and stress-y day at work. It didn't even occur to me to think that it might be bg-related.
Thennnn.... I started laughing. Hysterically. I had been talking for a bit, but had only just started to realize that I couldn't feel my tongue. Or part of my jaw. Or, curiously, the pads of my fingers on my right hand. The tongue/face tingling and numbness aren't new, but my hand going all spastic was a new one for me (for a low, anyways. I've got circulation issues in that hand from a few old injuries, but never before has the flare-up of my nerve stuff coincided with a bad low). After I stopped giggling and regained my composure, Boyfriend graciously offered to go get me some juice (I think he might have doubted my ability to navigate stairs at that point). He asked how much I wanted, and I, judging by how bad I felt plus the knowledge that I was about to go to sleep, said around 20g of carbs. Being the wonderful human being that he is, Boyfriend measured out approximately the right amount of juice (he actually read the label! <3) and brought me a glass of juice. I gulped it back, waited the appropriate 15 minutes, and yay! I had gone from 2.6 to 2.7!
I was (understandably) not impressed. SO not impressed.
I was also very tired... and decided to wait it out. 10 minutes later I had come up to a nice 3.6, which is still too low for me. I didn't want to go back downstairs for more juice, so I cracked open a tube of glucose tablets that I found in the bottom of a drawer. They've probably been expired for...a little while (it said "2001" on the tube. Not "Exp: 2001" though.... just "2001"...so maybe that was a product code and not an expiration year?), but other than a weirdly chunky consistency they still tasted like glucose tablets normally do (like chalk). These also had a nutritional graph on the side that said that 2 glucose tabs equalled 4.75g of carbohydrates (super weird! I don't think I've ever seen anything like that in...well, since I can remember). I forced down 2 of them, brushed and flossed (again...) and went to bed. 4.75g of carbs, almost a half hour after 20g used to treat a low, should be enough to bring me to a nice # and keep me there til morning...right?
Ohhh, Melody. You know better than that.
Woke up? 13.2. Grumble grumble grumble.
On the plus side: It's Halloween! I carved pumpkins tonight :D. I know I'm super late - I normally have them done by mid-October, but this year I just kept pushing it back until...well, til today :P. I had around 200 trick-or-treaters last year, so I need to make sure my pumpkins are awesome. Don't take my word for it though: see for yourself!
I hope everyone has a lovely Halloween :). Happy haunting!
I have a sleep disorder. Actually, it's more or a respiratory issue - my airway collapses when I sleep, so between 13 & 14x per hour, my brain wakes up out of it's sleepy state to remind my airway to stay open so I can breathe. It's great (because I don't stop breathing) but also awful (because I never, at all, ever, can reach REM sleep because my brain is interrupted before it gets to that stage). I've seen a sleep doctor/respirologist, who was having me sleep in a sleep lab while electrodes stuck to my scalp/face/legs/body measure muscle movement and brain waves while I (try to) sleep.
I was sitting in a waiting room at the sleep lab last Thursday night, feeling jealous of the people who already have wires attached to their faces so they can go to sleep. I was also so very tired, and somewhat frustrated. My respirologist had ordered another sleep study to test my airway resistance problems when treated with a cpap machine, so for the second time in a few months I found myself at the sleep lab, late at night, waiting to have electrodes stuck to my scalp with sticky goop so I can go to sleep while the lab techs watch my brain.
I should point out that my frustration felt entirely justified; I was told to arrive by 10 pm and arrived early so I might complete the mandatory medical questionnaire and be ready to start being covered with electrodes and tubes at precisely 10. As I sat there, it approached 10:40 before they finally took me to my room and started sticking wires all over me.
So I sat and waited, & was a man in the waiting room with me. He finished his medical questionnaire a few minutes after I had finished mine, and when he was done he brought it up to the counter just as I had done. He stopped, though, and detoured past the big tub of jelly beans to scoop up a handful on his way back. It makes me wonder what kind of magical lifestyle these normal people lead, the people who can not only eat jelly beans without having to consider how their bodies convert carbs to blood glucose and how insulin helps to pull that glucose out of the blood stream, and how much insulin they need for the snacks they just had, but even more than that! It's the people who can EAT BEFORE BED! I can't do that! Any food past maybe 9pm will send me on an overnight blood-sugar rollercoaster. It took me a while, and I still slip up occasionally somewhat frequently, but I'm sort of at a place in my life where I realize the value in not eating late for the sake of good, stable overnight sugars. I always sort of wonder if other Type 1s out there feel sort of the same way: understanding that they're sacrificing lifestyle choices (like bedtime jellybeans) for tighter glucose control, and also worrying about the long-term implications of these decisions on their mental and emotional health. (am I overreacting? probably. It's not that big a deal to not eat candy before bed...usually. It might be nice to have the option though).
It's a small thing, I know - they're just jellybeans. Life with diabetes is a lot of small things though, and small things can start to feel pretty heavy when you add them all up.
I don't even like jelly beans...
Tomorrow is the day! It's the JDRF Ride event :D!
My team ride time is 1pm, so around 12:30 I'll head over to register & find out where my team's bike is stationed. I spoke to the local JDRF rep yesterday, and because my team still had 2 empty spots, she was trying to get us an extra team member. It turns out that several members of the Sens Alumni team are attending the event, and one of them (a former Detroit Red Wings player) works as a firefighter in the City and is attending the event, so he was matched with my team! I get a hockey player! 😀 John Barrett is going to be joining the City Hall team 🙂
Another super exciting thing for tomorrow: I'm attending an info session on the Medtronic pump+cgm combo. A Medtronic rep is coming to my area to discuss these things PLUS the new enlite sensor. I'm really looking forward to learning more about the devices, plus the change to ask questions in person is always nice :).
Also.....side note. I guess I got super caught up in everything that's been going on this week. Not just tomorrow's JDRF Ride and the Medtronic presentation, but work has been insane - my department had some major deadlines for reports and projects that had to be prepared for today, so I've been spending a lot of time at work lately. I've also been feeling so drained that I head to bed soon after I get home, so I haven't done my usual inventory of D-supplies.... so of course, I use my last test strip before dinner tonight, head to the cabinet to crack open a new bottle, and - surprise! I'm completely out.
I do have my spare, emergency, use-me-if-you're-desperate bottle of extra test strips...in my desk drawer at work.
Luckily I could still pull out my spare Contour Next meter, so I'm not completely out of luck til I can order new ones for my Contour USB tomorrow.
It's a bit of a bummer. I haven't let anything like this happen since I moved out and took over filling my own prescriptions (I was a lucky kid/teen/young adult...my wonderful mother would renew and pick up my prescriptions for me when I lived at home), but I've been so distracted over the past week and a half that I guess this just...slipped. Oh well - fixed by tomorrow, hopefully...
I saw this great post prompt over on Ninjabetic about No D day. The idea is to not mention diabetes online, but instead to talk about something else - so here it goes!
I used to be a lifeguard. Still am, actually, but that's sort of taken the back burner now that I'm an adult with a grown-up job and a house and a dog and all sorts of adultish responsibilities. I lifeguarded and taught advanced aquatic courses (I taught lifeguards how to be lifeguards. I also taught instructors how to teach swimming lessons) when I was in university. I teach both the Lifesaving Society and the Red Cross programs, and although I don't teach anywhere near as much now as I used to, I still love it!
My favourite course to teach? It's probably a tie between the LSS's Advanced Instructor course and the Examination Standards Clinic. The AI course is for instructors who already teach swimming lessons but want to teach more advanced levels (teaching first aid, teaching lifeguards, etc) & the ESC is for instructors who already teach advanced levels but want to be able to run exams to certify candidates. I think I love these two courses the most because the candidates who take them are brand new to advanced teaching and examining. Candidates in these courses tend to be excited about teaching, and it can get harder and harder to find that level of enthusiasm the longer an instructor has been teaching.
What else to say about me (that's not about D)?...
I have the cutest dog. His name is Ben & he's a big pile of adorable. He knows it, & he'll use his cuteness to try to win a few extra treats sometimes all of the time. Here's my little guy:
So last October I walked past an event in the lobby of the building where I work. This isn't unusual; the plaza on the main floor is huge and events are hosted there year-round. This one caught my attention though - I saw JDRF posters, so I stopped to take a look at what was going on. I saw stationary bikes spread out all over the lobby, with workout-gear-clad people stopping by registration tables, and teams of enthusiastic individuals cheering on their colleagues and friends who were riding the stationary bikes. Naturally, I was intrigued...
I looked it up few days later and found out all about the JDRF ride, and decided to try to get involved next time it came around. Fast-forward to a few weeks ago, I realized that this year's Ride was fast approaching and I should start planning 😀
I called my local JDRF office to ask whether individuals can participate without a team, and was told that they don't recommend it. The rep said that someone from my workplace was involved with the JDRF though, and offered to approach this individual for me and ask whether he would want to join me. To sum up what would otherwise be a long (and fairly boring) story, I spoke to a few people and have three "probablys" who have told me that they will ride with me on a team this year. I created my workplace's team (I'm a team capitain!) a few days ago, and now I'm just waiting for my coworkers to register so I'm not the only team member :P.
I'm sort of excited, although there's definitely a part of me that worries that, since my coworkers haven't actually registered yet, they might change their minds and decide not to participate, so I would be biking the whole hour on my own... & I'm semi-fit but I still think that I would find that pretty challenging. I also haven't started telling the rest of the office that I'm riding, since I feel like it's strange to call it a "workplace team" when I'm the only one registered. I want my future (hopefully) teammates to sign up online so I can start passing the team page along to others in my workplace!
The last few days have been crazy! (good-crazy....)
I spent lunch on Friday at the hospital getting my bloodwork for the a1c test that my healthcare team said I need in order to go on a pump. I emailed the nurse on my D-team and asked if she could fwd me the result when she received it, and was absolutely floored when she sent me the number on Monday. I was expecting something close to what it had been last time. I've been working harder, but I also had a few rough patches over the summer so overall I figured I would end up about the same - but I was shocked to get my result and see that my a1c has dropped by 0.9% since my last test in June. 0.9%!! 😀
I'm also participating in the JDRF Ride this October! I'm super excited to be able to join an event like this. There's a big story behind how my team
came together is coming together, but that's a post for another day!
I signed up for the World Diabetes Day postcard exchange today, and...I'm excited. Really, really excited. I should probably explain:
I participated in the JDRF Walk as a child, probably around 16 years ago. I did it for one or two years, and I remember loving it. It was fun, it was energetic, and I got to feel like I was doing something. I remember that sense of community, that feeling of being a part of a group that was united for a common goal. I've been thinking about that a lot lately, and I miss that feeling - the feeling of belonging to a community of people who get what t1 is like and want to be rid of it as much as I do. I've also been doing a lot of reading lately, and reading blogs and stories from some of my favourite health activists is making me feel like I want to do more to be involved.
I am just so, so psyched to see something as cool as this that I can be a part of. I don't know too many other diabetics - I've got a few neighbours, friends, and coworkers who are all type 2s, but I'm the only insulin-user I know. It's crazy - I live in a huge municipality and I'm certain there are other t1s in my area, but I don't know anyone. The opportunity to interact (via postcard :D) with others who know what it's like just seems so fantastic to me. I love that I'll get the chance to create something unique and awesome and share it with others who get what it's like to deal with this disease, day after day.
so yeah... I'm pretty pumped 🙂
I heard from my diabetes nurse today regarding my ADP documentation. She said that they require a certain number of a1c tests over the past year, and by the time my "pump start date" comes around (probably in about 4 months), one of my a1c tests will pass the one-year mark, so it "expires."
No biggie, in for another blood test is all it'll take. I'm a little anxious about what this one will be - I had a tough summer. I had tons of dental work, spent a while on antibiotics and had minor dental surgery. No biggie, but infection and antibiotics made me need to up basal and bolus insulin by between 25 and 40%, and those numbers still haven't come back down to what they were prior to my dental issues. It's taken a while to start to feel like my carb ratios are working for me again, so I'm curious to see what my a1c looks like after that roller-coaster of a summer...