3
Sep

Another dx anniversary 

A few words for my Diabetes.
So, diabetes, there's not much to note this year. It's a Sunday; I spent most of the day cooking and doing laundry. Exciting stuff. You know all about it- you followed me around all day, just as you have for the past few decades.
I started a new sensor but was about to eat dinner, then had just eaten, then ate dessert... so by the time I checked to calibrate, I was running pretty high. Hardly surprising. You remember this, I'm sure.  After all, you were there to refuse to take my sensor calibration. "Too high," you told me. "Try again later."
I recently heard some good news about having CGM evaluated for coverage in my province. More on this later, but it could be very exciting. Who knows, diabetes-- maybe more folks in my province could be equipped with the tools and the tech that we need in order to kick you back where you belong??
Diabetes, you might have noticed that I didn't get in fights with anyone today. I didn't get rip-roaring drunk and bawl my eyes out about you, the incessant nuisance that refuses to leave me the fck alone. I didn't cave to the unhealthy habits of back in the day. I was....okay.
Maybe this is growing up? It feels like quiet resignation. A resigned sort of sadness. I might not be ripping into anyone who dares piss me off today, but I'm still feeling that deep grief that can't be paved over no matter how hard you try to ignore it. I guess this is now it is.
Diabetes, it's been 24 years. I don't speak to you directly very often, as I find it hard to stay reasonable in these conversations, but I will say this:

As ever year,
I wish.

I hope. 

I very sincerely pray that someone; some divine ruler, some masterful scientist, SOME ONE hears these dreams of mine.

I hope only one of us is left this time next year.
Yours,
Melody

8
Nov

Pet Expo 2014

I took my pooch to the Pet Expo earlier today. Every year a convention centre in my city hosts a giant Pet Expo that showcases pet adoption agencies, pet food stores, etc. This is the second year I've brought my dog, and although he tends to find it pretty overwhelming, we still had good time!

 

Ben and I at the Pet Expo

Ben gives me face kisses while I try to get him to pose

We tried to get a picture on the Milk-Bone chair (they were giving away Milk-Bone tooth-cleaning bone and a printout of your chair picture) for a few minutes, but my Ben was having none of it.  Since he's such a small dog and kept very nearly getting kicked when he was on the floor, he actually spent most of the afternoon sitting in his pet carrier (pictured hanging off of my arm, above).

I started off wearing a sweater, but that place was SO crowded and I started to feel overheated pretty quickly. I stored my sweater in my bag and carried on with touring around the place. After attempting to get a good photo (and monopolizing the Milk-Bone chair) for a couple of minutes, we gave up and started getting ready to continue walking - BUT! There was a young woman hanging out outside the Milk-Bone area. I actually bumped into her on my way in to the chair, so I vaguely remembered her from when I apologized for bumping her.

As I was leaving she tapped me on the shoulder and gestured towards my cgm while she asked if I would mind if she asked what it was. I was a bit surprised (I kind of feel like most people just dismiss "medical stuff" in strangers and don't give it much thought), but I smiled and told her that of course I didn't mind. I explained in a few sentences how it was a continuous glucose monitor that helps me manage my diabetes, and she thanked me for explaining and we both went our separate ways.

 

I don't often see or talk to strangers who have questions about this stuff. People I know - yes, all the time. Friends, family, coworkers, alllll of these folks come up with questions and most of them don't feel shy about asking. It was nice to be able to educate someone today, and also pretty cool that someone felt curious enough to ask. & politely, too!

 

 

 

 

 

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